THE FIVE STAGES OF GRIEF Denial Anger Bargaining Depression Acceptance ‪When you enter the world of Motherhood there are so many things people don’t tell you that you simply need to learn. You’re also never told that if things don’t go as planned, you might experience Grief.  ‬After Olivia was born, I drifted through the first four stages of grief. Denial, Anger, bargaining and depression. I was stuck in the void. It’s almost difficult to… View Post

Whilst many people have Narcissistic triats only a select few are true narcissists right down to the bone. In this day and age, with the social media boom, narcissism is in our culture.  What happens when your own parent/s have this personality trait? How is your life affected? To outsiders, your parent/s portray the perfect image always looking to please and juggling everything with ease. They are probably social magnets who attracts people from all… View Post

If you’ve been here from the beginning (which honestly, wasn’t too long ago) when I created this blog you will see I’ve deterred from my original “niche” It certainly isn’t intentional as raising awareness for Periventricular leukomalacia until everybody understands is still my ultimate goal, it’s just some days are easier spreading that message than others. Somedays The words flow and the sentences form other days…Nothing! I can’t think of many other experiences where you… View Post

Today marks the last day of Mental Health Awareness week and with last week being Maternal mental health matters I couldn’t not write a post to conclude both weeks. Adding Mental health into my blog I do feel compelled to participate and join in the conversation, which does add a level of pressure, especially creating content based on the topic. Although I am happy to talk about my mental health, as I wholeheartedly agree that… View Post

Thank you Maternal Mental Health Awareness week *possible trigger warning This year was the UK’s first Maternal Mental health awareness week, between 1-7 May Perinatal mental health partnership held themed based days for everybody to get involved & raise awareness. Charities and organisations ran events to celebrate & support mums & their families. While post-natal depression is fairly well known, there are a number of other pregnancy-related conditions that aren’t spoken about as much. These… View Post

Dear Depression, You have been apart of my life for longer than I care to acknowledge. You are my worst enemy pretending to be my best friend. I feel like things are not true especially with the people I love. You tell me I am not good enough, I am not lovable, i will never be good enough. I have tried ways to make sure you are not there, that you are no longer part… View Post

I’ve thought about this post long and hard since before I first created my blog, “How does having a child with a neurological disorder affect relationships” How does Disability and Mental Health affect family life? 21% of families with a disabled child say that isolation has led to the break up of their family life. Shortly after Olivia was born 4 years ago she developed NEC a serious condition we had never heard off. When… View Post

So I’m going to pretty blunt and put it out there, I’ve had a pretty shitty and difficult year. I completely lost myself… Every feeling I had put on hold for years began to consume me. There have been moments where I’ve wanted to give up, where I’ve wanted to give in. Give into self-destruction, give in to the pain and trauma and to admit defeat. There have even been times where I’ve thought that… View Post

“I feared because it was too early, I cried because it was too soon. Yet I underestimated the strength in one so small.”  World prematurity day ~ 17.11.16 The above was my Instagram post I published in support of world prematurity day, Even though it’s been almost 4 years since Olivia was born reminiscing is still upsetting & I think it always is.  Dear all parents whose child has been born premature, I can not… View Post