I wholeheartedly love my children, Olivia and Sofiya are my entire world. It goes without saying I wish things could be slightly different, I wish they could have a “normal” sibling relationship. It’s so easy to compare my girls and our lives with others, looking at the outward appearance, behaviours and the developmental skills (or lack thereof) rather than looking at the heart.  What’s most important to realise after learning of said disability, is learning… View Post

 Recently several people I really care about are no longer apart of my life. It’s not easy; relationship breakdowns especially family related can be among the most painful experiences in life. Loss of any kind is tough, but loss like this can sting like none other. I wrote a previous post touching on the subject of “Why” which you can read here. After this was posted it stirred up a few emotions from myself and… View Post

New Year’s resolutions – rarely have they actually been seen through but I love thinking about them mid-year. I never promise myself come January as I think it adds too much pressure. However a few months later I Take some time to reflect on the past, the good, the bad and the ugly. Positively plan my year ahead, getting excited about what’s to come and thinking about to how to enjoy it to the full.… View Post

My Daughter is turning 5 this year. Every day I look at her and I’m completely amazed by how far she has come. Our Mother/daughter relationship is unconventional yet she teaches me as much as I am teaching her. Say what you want and do not be afraid to say no Olivia may be non-verbal however when she wants something, oh boy does she let you know. Either she will throw her arms out. Let’s… View Post

WOW, I can’t believe this was taken almost 11 years ago! How much we didn’t know and how much we thought we knew! Childfree and carefree teenagers with not a single worry in the world! No idea that in 7 years we would have a family together, knee deep in nappies and able to understand the complex medical jargon. Midweek partying a distance memory and now singing along to Disney soundtracks on REPEAT! Having babies… View Post

Dear Michael, Each day you inspire me. You wake up and conquer each day with a strong will and determination. I am so grateful for all of the hours and hard work you endure for us and our future.  You loved me when I was broken, you rescued me from despair. You wrapped your arms around me making sure I knew you were there. You love me far better than I deserve to be loved. Thank… View Post

I promise I will hold you tight I will comfort you when you cry I can’t promise you easy days without clouds and darkness or that tomorrow will be perfect However, I can promise that during those days I will hold you close and cuddle you until the sun sets I can promise you my everlasting devotion, my loyalty, my respect and my time I will always be here for you I will fiercely protect… View Post